I feel amazing. I talked to someone who "fits" for a couple of hours over coffee and it felt so good to be alive, alert and interested in what someone else was saying. Not to be unkind, but I find that in general people do not want to talk, they want to complain, suggest, criticize, or opine. It grates on my brain.
I tend to be a loner or maybe that isn't quite correct........I love being around my kind of people...........I guess I find myself completely undisturbed and thoroughly engaged by myself for days....My conversations with myself or my dog are quite good actually. But when one cannot work, volunteer or otherwise be involved in the outside world because a rapid cycling brain insures that you don't know what tomorrow will be like, .....................well you can figure the rest of that out..... But I so enjoyed conversing with someone about writing and the human element and then how the disorder affects our lives and finally....how, we are unlike others......we are that square peg that does not fit in the round hole........and............it's a good thing...because part of being someone with bipolar disorder pretty much insures that you are intelligent, creative, artistic, emotional, sensitive, very aware of things, inquisitive, perfectionist, and the list goes on.
I know exactly what you are saying. I am BP 1, possibly rapid-cycle. Take comfort in my darkest moments that so many famous poets, artists etc were BP. We are not alone. My famous BP list numbers 126, sad but something to do at 4.30am when can't & don't want to sleep! You with me?! Whilst I adore to converse and be with BP's, went out with one for 6 years! Heaven to start with: finally somebody who understood my most manic episode - I WAS Jesus Christ reborn. But almost fatal long term! I ramble. Goodnight! x
ReplyDeleteThank you for commenting. There is always comfort in knowing we are not alone. I still have that friendship and, in fact am meeting my friend to exchange some books this morning. WE are there for each other in times of crisis...that is another wonderful thing about it. Do you have a blog?I am now posting on Micello's musings.
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